: Without autonomy?
- Canada South cable channel GSN are set to produce versions of Grand Slam and Without Prejudice? this year. Given GSN's budget and the Canada South culture, this may test to destruction the idea that the latter show is not dependent upon the money, because it's utterly certain the money involved will not be life-changing. As for the former - I presume they won't get anyone remotely as good as Nick Rowe, and I guess it will end up as Jeopardy! vs Millionaire. Not that Jennings v Carpenter wouldn't be an absolutely fascinating encounter...
- Which makes me think. If there were another series of Grand Slam here, and nobody who appeared on the first one was eligible, who would be chosen? The first three names that come to my mind, interestingly, are female - Sarah Lang, Eleri Owen, Mary Swain. Ingram Wilcox would be in. Would we be able to throw in all five Eggheads? (Actually, anything that kills off that show would be positive...) Pat Gibson wasn't in series one, or was he? Richard Brittain would be interesting. Any cracking University Challenge contestants that might make it?
- I think Wilcox would start as outsider, Millionaire seems to depend largely upon the luck of the draw on the upper tier. It's worth noting that when Spate appeared on the show, he didn't even win as much as Endemol handed to Laura Pearce last Sunday in a failed ratings stunt for their fading hit Noel's Big-Money Game Theory.
- In spite of this, Gibson would have to be favourite by a long way. He's proven himself too many times on too many different quizzes.
- In other news, I've been an emotional wreck from time to time this week, as numerous triggers - some intentional, most not - have made me think constantly about where I will be living next academic year. I'd dearly love to be living alone; sharing a house would almost guarantee excessive noise, lack of personal space and generally be hugely unsuitable for someone on the autistic spectrum. Staying in my hall would probably not be ideal either; there are many very noisy students, while the fixed mealtimes and general boarding-school environment (down to the very Right-leaning politics - the Mail and Torygraph are provided, the Grauniad and Indytab are not) are hardly conducive to autonomy. All that has suggested living alone, in a self-contained bedsit or similar, would suit me perfectly; however, even I fear loneliness in such a situation.
- During this week, I have had a number of emotional triggers - Gemma teaching me I Wish I Knew How It Would Feel To Be Free was the most painful one, as I dissolved into tears mid-phrase and didn't stop for ten minutes, but even trivial comments out of context have had an effect. For instance, a discussion among some of my friends regarding Christian Unions' legal status (Southampton's is not in question, but judging by their lack of comment to the university newspaper on the issue one has to wonder...) saw a mention of 'transgender students' - one of my electronic acquaintances is a transgender student who is also on the autistic spectrum, and is coping fine despite being in Nottingham, a far more dangerous city than Southampton, and thus the triggering thought was 'why can't I do the same?'.
- I'll probably have more to say soon.
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