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20th November 2007

1:58pm: Physics 101: tears do fall with acceleration ~9.8m/s^2
(Desperate witty post title for post 101, there.)

Someone has sent me an mp3 of Defying Gravity, as performed by Menzel (yay!).

First couple of listens, yesterday... yup, it's over-the-top in every sense, and it just about gets away with it, probably more clearly so in context.

Last night, I found that my freezer door was left open at one point (it's awkward to shut and evidently I used insufficient pressure). That's a whole bunch of food needing to be thrown out and I hate myself for it. Very brief suicidal ideation at that point, for I am still that vulnerable.

This morning, a room inspection a week earlier than was planned, but by mentioning the original date, I managed to persuade them to revert to it. Good thing too, I'd have failed badly; in this emotional state of mine lately, maintaining a clean space has just not been happening.

I then listened to Defying Gravity again, hoping something so dramatically excessive would cheer me up... hang on. This song really is talking to me. Oh good grief this is practically a flashback to life at the Fortress. And then, as the song's lyrical emphasis shifts in the second half of the song, I am reminded of my successful detachment in 2006, and the most unexpected support from Weymouth thereafter, and the last two minutes passed in a flood of stinging, yet comforting, tears.

Not since January have I had such a powerful emotional response to music. The thematic similarities between the triggering songs is utterly beyond coincidence.
Music: Idina Menzel - Defying Gravity
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