: Making the Labour Party's political position seem stable
This evening, I went to a production of Our Day Out on campus. You may recall that this was the play I could have been involved in, but sacrificed in favour of Absent Friends.
If you care to have certain spoilers to further the description of the points made, I shall do so, but for now I shall not... and leave you with the summary.
I came out with a sense of fundamental conflict; between my individualist streak on one hand, and my clinginess to rules and order on the other. The play practically invited one to pick a side, and it must be telling that I chose the latter for the first act and never really let go.
Earlier this week, upon reflection of several self-inflicted wounds (missing one test and one essay deadline for a combined 8.5pt hit split unevenly across two of the four units this year, primarily), I noticed that I react in a very violent way to any of my own failures, for I am framing my ability to live independently upon my own rule-bound standards, rightly or wrongly.
Fairly obviously, the conflict between individualism and orderliness is roughly in line with the vertical axis on the political compass. My position was about -5 on that axis in previous times I've taken the test, but I've had it swing violently towards the authoritarian in certain specific situations before, and for much of this play that happened again.
This is a horrible sense of conflict that I didn't realise I had, but I may be stronger for it.
This evening, I went to a production of Our Day Out on campus. You may recall that this was the play I could have been involved in, but sacrificed in favour of Absent Friends.
If you care to have certain spoilers to further the description of the points made, I shall do so, but for now I shall not... and leave you with the summary.
I came out with a sense of fundamental conflict; between my individualist streak on one hand, and my clinginess to rules and order on the other. The play practically invited one to pick a side, and it must be telling that I chose the latter for the first act and never really let go.
Earlier this week, upon reflection of several self-inflicted wounds (missing one test and one essay deadline for a combined 8.5pt hit split unevenly across two of the four units this year, primarily), I noticed that I react in a very violent way to any of my own failures, for I am framing my ability to live independently upon my own rule-bound standards, rightly or wrongly.
Fairly obviously, the conflict between individualism and orderliness is roughly in line with the vertical axis on the political compass. My position was about -5 on that axis in previous times I've taken the test, but I've had it swing violently towards the authoritarian in certain specific situations before, and for much of this play that happened again.
This is a horrible sense of conflict that I didn't realise I had, but I may be stronger for it.
Mood: 
contemplative
contemplativeMusic: Alex Parks - Over Conscious