: The year in review?
As I return to Weymouth tomorrow, though tonight I head to Fareham to visit Maureen and will stay there overnight, it seems fitting to sum up the year now.
There's no doubt I've gained in confidence somewhat over the year; I began it crying over any songs that pertained to independence, and six months later I navigated NSBH and two busy Birmingham streets alone, the first of many memorable summer evenings. Recent slips in confidence seem to be reversed more quickly, sometimes to a point of excess even. My stability is lacking, but I have a better idea of what I need to regain it; to this end, vocal tuition is being sacrificed to focus upon composition and in particular arrangement, a skill that once acquired will remove a key area of dependence on others.
It's been quite a momentous year and yet I'm not quite sure what to say about it. Perhaps one should settle on the memorable moments; performing my own music at open mic nights; karaoke nights in Glasgow, Blackpool and then many in Southampton; the choral concert; the Ultimate Championships; that lunchtime in Birmingham, and surviving the most fraught journey imaginable thereafter. Some of these prove that I can cope with independent living; maybe I should believe that more readily, but every little slip feels like disproof to me. Need to somehow change that.
Aim for 2008: remove areas of dependence that clearly exist, such as an inability to write arrangements; produce the lighting design for at least one campus theatrical production; minimise the impact of mistakes on self-confidence by grounding self-esteem somewhere else; hopefully gain a position of responsibility in at least one society, which almost certainly means Programme Controller for Surge Radio.
As I return to Weymouth tomorrow, though tonight I head to Fareham to visit Maureen and will stay there overnight, it seems fitting to sum up the year now.
There's no doubt I've gained in confidence somewhat over the year; I began it crying over any songs that pertained to independence, and six months later I navigated NSBH and two busy Birmingham streets alone, the first of many memorable summer evenings. Recent slips in confidence seem to be reversed more quickly, sometimes to a point of excess even. My stability is lacking, but I have a better idea of what I need to regain it; to this end, vocal tuition is being sacrificed to focus upon composition and in particular arrangement, a skill that once acquired will remove a key area of dependence on others.
It's been quite a momentous year and yet I'm not quite sure what to say about it. Perhaps one should settle on the memorable moments; performing my own music at open mic nights; karaoke nights in Glasgow, Blackpool and then many in Southampton; the choral concert; the Ultimate Championships; that lunchtime in Birmingham, and surviving the most fraught journey imaginable thereafter. Some of these prove that I can cope with independent living; maybe I should believe that more readily, but every little slip feels like disproof to me. Need to somehow change that.
Aim for 2008: remove areas of dependence that clearly exist, such as an inability to write arrangements; produce the lighting design for at least one campus theatrical production; minimise the impact of mistakes on self-confidence by grounding self-esteem somewhere else; hopefully gain a position of responsibility in at least one society, which almost certainly means Programme Controller for Surge Radio.